Don't Give Up.

Let me start out by saying, thank you! Granted, I only started this blog two days ago, but I am so grateful for everyone who views my blog. Why you might ask? Because you all are supporting me and everyone who has the same experience, whether you think you are or not. I am amazed at the amount of private messages I have received from ladies informing me of having the same diagnosis. It is helping me to accept the diagnosis and the struggle even more. 

Is 2016 the year? Maybe... I thought 2015 was, and 2014, and 2013, and 2012... I am not ready to accept "giving up." Everyone just tells me to stop worrying and to not think about trying to get pregnant. WHAT?! Who says that to someone whose mind is set on having the perfect little family? Let me just tell you, it's not that easy! Nor do I wish it was easy. As a little girl carrying around a baby doll, I always wished of having a child. It was one of the first conversations Bill and I had when we started dating. Having a child is so important to me, so before you start asking questions, stop, it's not a conversation you want to have with just anyone, even if you think you really know the person. Just so you know, I am happy for any woman who is pregnant. I'm okay with hearing your wonderful news. I just hope and pray that some day I will achieve the same. 

Infertility effects 1 in 7 couples. The most common cause of infertility is polycystic ovarian syndrome. I regret waiting over 4 years to meet with an infertility doctor, but I am also very thankful for physicians who specialize in infertility as they are the experts to provide a plan for us. I encourage every woman to have regular gynecology appointments and ask questions!  

So I've received the paperwork from the infertility nurse, status post the consultation from the doctor. It's all becoming so surreal. And the testing begins... for Bill and I! He's thrilled, let me tell you! At least his is just blood work since he's already been through the traumatic part of his testing, months ago. He's such a great support system through this entire process. I've read so many blogs by women going through the same, and have read that their spouse is not supportive. Ladies, if your spouse is not supportive of this process, stop! You can't go through this without the person you need the most. This obviously isn't something to do alone. 

Words of wisdom...

Welcome!

Welcome! I have been reading more blogs and watching more vlogs about peoples' lives that it has inspired me to write my own blog. As a child, I used to journal. I would write about anything and everything. Thankfully, no one ever "found" my journal. It would be cool to sit down and read them one day; now that it's been many, many years since I've journaled. 

So you probably are wondering why I've felt inspired to blog. Well, thanks to Roman Atwood and his family, his motto to "Smile More," has truly lifted me up, made me a better person, and have helped my relationship with my husband and God. I know, it probably sounds crazy... Roman brings out the positive in everything. Not having a good day? Just check out RomanAtwoodVlogs on YouTube. My husband and I are hooked! 

Another reason I have felt inspired to blog, is because every one of our lives is a journey - a unique, creative, individual journey. My husband and I have been together for 9 plus years, and married for 4 years 4 months. We want to start a family, but have been struggling. Let's face it, this is difficult for me to even write this for the whole world to see. However, the struggle has gone on for over 4 years, with very few people even knowing. The questions of, "When are you going to start to have a family?," "Are you guys ever going to have kids?," "It's your turn!," "What are you waiting for?" - the list goes on. Well you want the answer?? What we're waiting for is not just the right time, but for the doctors to find out what is going on. We've been through lots of tests and procedures and still no answers. Today we had our initial consultation via phone with our doctor at Shady Grove Fertility. Let me just tell you, it was a great consultation and we learned a lot. The doctor reviewed our medical information and spoke with us for over an hour. After discussing many fertility options and possible diagnoses, we decided to take the next step with a different fertility medication. With the possibility of having polycystic ovary syndrome, there's a lot that I need to do to prepare to change; such as eating habits, exercise, medications/supplements, and mental preparations. I feel like I should be feeling anxious, scared, devastated, or ashamed of the diagnosis, but there's no reason to feel that way. We have to stay positive and keep praying. God doesn't give you what you can't handle! 

Stay tuned! This is just a short glimpse, since getting started in the "blogging world."